Just think of how temporal the numbing injection used by the dentists for tooth extraction works. Shortly after the procedure, it wears off, and you are back to square one.
“Setting aside time for devotional activity, in and of itself, does not necessarily make us any more spiritual. (The Pharisees were renowned for their devotional habits, but they were far from spiritual.) Neither is a quiet time some sort of good luck charm, that gets God on our good side, guarantees our day will go better and keeps us from having problems. Daily devotions are not a way of bartering of negotiating with God.”
O aching heart, with sorrow torn
Thy Lord is near and knows!
He knows it all – the feet way-worn,
The weary cares and woes
The load of grief in anguish borne,
Thy Lord is near…He knows
Ultimately, nobody gives a robust reply like God. So, I hope you learn to let go and let God. There are some situations you must allow God to step in because only Him understands what you may be going through. He sees you, He understands your pain, God acknowledges your genuine heart, and He is going to show up for you if you let Him.